Wait and wait...

You want to get up in the morning, there is some new news but beyond situations of war or as drops the bag, not that there's more news.

We are accustomed to expect, expect things from others, we hope that the Treasury money back, we hope to be healthy, we expect to be happy, to expect to be expected.

But hopefully not mean to be patient, we may be the opposite. And for me that patience is absent in my personality.

So I had to get to discover ways to hope and not despair.

After reading, eating all the chocolate he had in the fridge, two showers and a few masturbation, continued with the same sense of despair.

Why confess it or not, it kills me to wait without being expected.

Anyway back to my blog, thinking that maybe someday write these things would feed me, I was relaxed.

And so waiting, I got to thinking at all what I expect in life. There are so many things, I hope many things, but how many are real ... maybe I hope more dreams than anything else.

I hope such as writing, finalize and publish a book, but to expect that, first you have to write, think and do.

I hope some chance that someone values beyond everything I do. I hope and wait.

All around me expect something from me, sometimes even more than me. My mother is waiting, I was not the same thing happen again and I can pay my credit.. My friends I hope everything goes well. Dido, I suppose, you expect a lot from me, I hope not to disappoint, sure that what is expected to be patient, other than to learn German, which I am doing, while among English signs and kisses and tell us everything.

Many expect me to fall into your arms, give them an hour of pleasure and then I go. But let those who expect that from me, I tell you, it will not be.

And I do hope people. Mainly that do not hurt me, second to understand me with my doubts, fears, follies, words, thoughts, laughter, tears, glances, silences ... and sometimes without realizing it and then expect too much when it comes, I fall into the deception, in disappointment. So I learned to let myself be surprised, at least, for better or for worse, I'll be disappointed.

And as you do not want the thing, while doing this I keep thinking about the clock, calendar, and those miles that separate us from the norm is 2,000 but this week is 10,000 kilometers.

Carrión.